Archive for March, 2009

I Married Someone Who Doesn’t Cherish Me

{ 31 March, 2009 @ 10:11 am } · { Confessions }
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I have been married for over 3 years now, and I absolutely hate it! If it wasn’t for our child I wouldn’t be here right now. I never thought I would be with someone who thinks romance is something that only exists in movies!

He has never actually taken me out on a date yet that I havent organised or paid for! He has absolutely no money and is dragging his heels when it comes to finding a real job. I wouldn’t even mind if he worked for McDonalds. Our child is three and my husband has never had a job! Even when I was on benefits, I was still the main bread winner! He doesn’t even know half of the bills and rent I have to pay, nor has he ever asked! I feel like I’m a single mother of two children! I am so angry, I work all the hours god sends trying to pay for everything, and most of the rest of time, I’m sleeping to recover. My life was never supposed to be like this, I feel like I’m carrying some serious dead weight I desperately need to get rid of.

He can’t even drive! It took me two years to learn, and most of the time I used my child benefit money to pay for lessons and the countless amount of tests I had to take! He doesn’t even want to bother learning, and it’s just not fair. I ended up with someone who doesn’t cherish me and Im angry at myself for doing it now.

Things and People I Hate

{ 30 March, 2009 @ 10:04 am } · { Confessions }
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Things and people that I find annoying:

-People who fly to a far-off place for only 2 or 3 days. (stupid victims of the mini-break culture)

-People who travel to Amsterdam to smoke pot legally (waste of time and money, they could easily do the same in the comfort of their own home)

-People who travel to Amsterdam to the red-light district to shag a prostitute or just to look at them (waste of time and money, they could easily do the same in their own town. You can find prostitutes everywhere, they are all the same)

-La Tomatina (fucking waste of tomatoes. And children starve in Africa for fuxake, just to repeat this cliche. Throw tomatoes at each other? What are you, six-year olds? Childish stuff)

-Oktoberfest (Why travel all the way to Germany to sit in a goddam tent and drink beer? Are you that bored?)

-Stag nights in Prague (Why get pissed, stoned and stupid in the most overrated city in Europe, when you can do all this locally?)

-Queing to pay in H&M (Why does it take so fucking long? The staff in H&M are slow, irritatating teenage fashion-victims. Go back to school.)

-Starbucks cookies and cakes (plain bad, especially the skinny muffin. Bleurgh. And why does it cost more if i eat in? Fuckers! )

-Street fund-raisers and surveyors (Why do you try to blatantly stop me on the street when i am in a hurry? And don’t knock on my door either, you parasites!)

-Fat, lazy people who complain about not being able to lose weight, while they stuff their faces constantly, sitting on their blubber-ass. (Sort out your diet, and start exercising blubber whales!)

-Mini skirts on short, chunky legs (where’s your self-criticism?)

-People wearing too much perfume. (are you trying to hide your halitosis?)

-People who have to drink to have fun (of course, they are dead boring and bored when sober)

-TNT magazine (huge pile of boring antepodean bullshit)

-facebook (the everest of self-prostitution, and self-adoration)

A Void Within Me

{ 29 March, 2009 @ 6:52 pm } · { The Truth Booth }
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I have a void in me that I cannot explain. I can be surrounded by millions of people and I will always feel alone. Why can’t I be normal? I see so many people and I envy them just because they know how to give and receive love, something I struggle with, something I wish I could have with those close to me, yet it’s so hard. How can you live this way when you have everything the world can offer, and yet you lack the one thing, the only thing that your heart is seeking – true happiness?

The Truth Is Beautiful

{ 29 March, 2009 @ 10:01 am } · { Confessions }
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What happened to honesty in this country? I have been lied to by every person I loved. I have been lied to by my bosses.
Everyone seems to revel in their lies. I am a hypocrite as I have lied three times in the last twelve months, but they were well intentioned lies that helped rather than hurt. The truth is beautiful.

Love In the Office?

{ 28 March, 2009 @ 6:01 pm } · { The Truth Booth }
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I’ve been having a fling with a work colleague. We have been working together for just over a year and become very close. A few times we’ve had a kiss and ended up in bed, but recetly the heat between us has soared and we can’t get enough of each other.

We sneak out of the office for a sneaky kiss and cuddle and have even had sex in the office once. My god, the sex is amazing! But, suddenly he’s backed off. There’s been very little phsyical contact just the odd quick kiss. Trouble is I’ve fallen for him and want to tell him but I’m scared he’ll reject me. I’m no snow white and have a ‘colourful’ history when it comes to men. He’s seen me with a blase attitude towards them and he’s given me a shoulder to cry on too.

He’s my soulmate, he’s no looker but I don’t care. I would give up my raucauos lifestyle to be with him. We are both single, and have even met each other’s parents. I so love him but he probaby thinks I see him as another fling. What shall I do?

I Just Want to Kick Something!

{ 28 March, 2009 @ 9:57 am } · { Confessions }
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Feeling irrationally angry and want to blow off some steam. Got a stupid pressure in my head that just won’t go away. Cannot sleep because of it. I feel let down, humiliated, abandoned and lied to. I want to talk to someone about this but I have no one I trust enough. I feel like punching the hell out of something or telling some home truths. Violence and abuse is never the answer though. I hate whatever it is gouging away at my inner self. What a waste of space. I was a lot better when I filled my life with denial. Whatever. Never mind.

A Medical Dilemma

{ 27 March, 2009 @ 5:03 pm } · { Matter of Fact }
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We are posting this on behalf of one of our readers, a psychology student, who needs respondents for a research project. He is looking for the truth – what would you do? There is no right or wrong answer, he is only interested in what your answer would be and why.

Case:

You have one heart and one liver. You have four patients; all of which needs both organs to survive. In short you can only save one of the four lives. Who would you give the organs to?

Scenario:

Patient 1: A doctor, and a colleague of yours, who is both successful at his job and contributes to his work place. You have known each other for years. But; he has a history of domestic violence towards his wife and children and has at one occasion, supposedly, sexually assaulted his partner.

Patient 2: A heavy smoker and drinker who needs the transplant because his habits destroyed his first set of organs. He has a clear criminal record and has no history of unemployment. His job involves working with children and teenagers in the community to help them with whatever their problems might be and he is highly regarded by these children, some of whom have come to see him as a parent.

Patient 3: A reformed criminal convicted of murder that is just about to complete his prison sentence. In his defence the murder was ‘justified’, no other details are available. He plans to get into social work to help reform other criminals upon release.

Patient 4: A lower-class cleaner with a record of going in and out of employment. He doesn’t pay tax as he claims that he doesn’t believe his hard-earned money goes to support what he feels is important for society. He has no records of criminal activity and generally behaves in an orderly fashion.

Additional Information:

All the patients are in the same age range.

None of the patients display any sign of anti-social behaviour. Generally they are pleasant people.

Medically speaking all four patients has the same survival rate with the new organs – provided that they stick to a regime administered by the hospital.

Without the transplant surgery none of the patients will survive long enough for more organs to be found.

So:

Who would you give the organs to?

Why did this patient deserve the organs the most?

Why didn’t the other 3 patients deserve it as much?

Please, could you also let me know if you are male or female and your age?

Going Mad On My Own

{ 27 March, 2009 @ 1:56 am } · { Confessions }
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I think I’m losing my mind. I want to run, scream and cry. I’m hurting badly, coping worse, and can’t even tell people why, let alone that it’s happening.

Man Over Board Story Smells of Fish

{ 26 March, 2009 @ 11:47 pm } · { I Tell Ya! }
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I’m reading about this woman whose husband was killed and chucked over board by pirates. Apparently they tied her up naked while they ransacked the couple’s boat. She got loose and tried to jump ship but they caught her and tied her up well and proper this time. Then they left the boat in the dinghy, but the engine didn’t work so they tried to get back on to the boat. But then the woman saw her chance and started the engine and sped off to safety in the boat.

Ok… Is it just me or is there something fishy about this story? How could she get the engine started and drive off if she was tied up? And where are the pirates? Where did they come from? Why did they have to take the dinghy off the couple’s boat – surely they must have had a vessel to get to the boat in the first place?

//Yours Truly

Women Are Strange Creatures

{ 25 March, 2009 @ 9:47 am } · { Confessions }
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This is not so much a confession but just to highlight what complex beings women are (as us men know). Well my girlfriend went away last week to see her Dad. This was the first time we’ve been apart as we are a fairly new couple with about 6 months into the relationship. The whole time she was there I called her and vice versa she seemed kind of moody over the phone times. I know this was because she missed me and stuff. Well she came back to London on Monday night, I drove over to see her later in a day on Tuesday because I had a lot on. I could see she was in a bit of a strop when I got there as if its my fault we hadn’t been together for a while.

I’m thinking hang on a minute you’ve been away, what do you want to say/do? Obviously I asked her if anything had happened over there but she said it was fine. So I guess its just part of learning about each other and maybe just a bit of jealousy. Nevertheless women act in funny ways.

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